Real Talk

I know when writing, ya wanna write for what people will read!

I totally get that

BUT what if its not truthful, what if

the struggle is still there at the end of the paragraph.

Lightening up the mood is always a good icebreaker,

but what if after the ice is broken up you need to have

something else to melt the ice away?

Telling my goofy stories arent always what needs to be

spoken or read,

some times it just needs to be fun….

I am by default not a positive thinker. If the outcome

looks gray and gloomy it is.

Its such a struggle for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

And even then I still have this imaginary scale in the back of my head

that says “Ehh… I don’t know girl. It’s not coming out even”.

We all are different so…Why would sensory look the same?!

It doesn’t!

In fact THIS is what makes a parent

go completely bonkers!... Am I wrong?

The older my sensory child gets I’m seeing how

the securities and insecurities are affecting her and

the emotional side is starting to scream

for attention over the senses even.

Emotional regulation--- heard of it?

It’s a legit, for real thing.

And its not about being steady and regulated

at all what so ever! Quite the opposite actually.

Hangry—know that one? Its also a for real thing

at our house! It no longer refers to

grumpy old man with diabetes either.

Parenting this sorta "crazy" throws quite the kink

in my pretty little imagination of how I dream

of days going…

I guess you could use this example,

while walking along the beach alone

or with your love its such a peaceful thing.

The ocean the sand its all of your senses and then….

the hurricane comes. Riding out the storm is all you can do.

Yep right there on the beach.

How does that beach look after the storm?

How do YOU look after the storm?

What about some warning or somewhere to go for cover?!

Heck that would be nice, Right?!

(I seriously just want to stop here because that’s all I can confidently say)

So here I go, diving into this with you-

This parenting journey for a sensory, emotional child

Acknowledging it is the first step….